YIKES!! My tendency to panic too easily, thanks to PTSD

About 4 hours ago, I turned the faucet handle on the kitchen sink, intending to wash my hands. A tiny trickle of water came out, followed by… nothing.

My heart seemed to stop. Here in eastern New Mexico, we’re in the middle of an unprecedented heat wave, years of drought, and a year of record-breaking wildfires. A couple of days ago, my stepdaughter called to tell me that officials in the town where she lives had notified everyone that they need to conserve water as much as possible. The officials spread the word by personally calling everyone who lives in the town, which my stepdaughter found alarming. Her dad and I live sixty miles north, in a different municipality. We haven’t received any calls to conserve our water. But… did our city just run out of water?

Immediately, my trauma-addled brain jumped to: “WE’RE ALL GOING TO DIE!!”

To make a long story short, a computer glitch at the bank had caused our payment for the water bill to bounce. With no notice of any kind from either the bank or the water company, our water was shut off, in the middle of triple-digit heat. It’s 103 degrees outside right now. We need our water!

After my husband paid two visits to the utility company, our water was turned back on. It’s a glorious thing to open a faucet and have water come pouring out. Being able to flush the toilet is a cause for rejoicing. πŸ˜€

The moral of my story: Don’t jump to the conclusion that we are all going to die, the moment that one thing goes wrong. His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me. (see Matthew 10:29-31)

Speaking of sparrows, I have been leaving water outside for the birds all summer. Doves, crows, and dozens of little sparrows are enjoying the water bowls in our back yard. I love watching them. ❀

I took the picture of a sparrow drinking out of our dogs’ water bowl, while I was sitting on the back patio a few weeks ago. But when I moved slightly, trying for a better angle, the sparrow panicked and flew away. Yes, I have a lot in common with sparrows!

PTSD and Grief – Healing Through Nature β€” ANNA WALDHERR A Voice Reclaimed, Surviving Child Abuse

Early Autumn in the Sierra Nevada, Author Don Graham of Redlands, CA (CC BY-SA 2.0 Generic) β€œEverybody needs beauty as well as bread, places to play in and pray in, where nature may heal and give strength to body and soul alike.” – John Muir The respected naturalist and environmental philosopher, John Muir, believed thatΒ […]

PTSD and Grief – Healing Through Nature β€” ANNA WALDHERR A Voice Reclaimed, Surviving Child Abuse