This is Ageless! (Updated with a PS about how my PTSD has healed enough to allow me to do this)



I met my great grandson for the first time three days ago. Because of distance, some sad family drama, my PTSD, and lack of funds, we had never been able to get together before. My grandson was astonished when he was told that I am his grandpa’s mom.

“Mammy” is the name my grandchildren have given me. Soon, my great grandson was saying: “Follow me, Mammy! Follow me!” I joyfully followed him all around the 5,660 square feet and 2+ acres of the 1904 Airbnb mansion that had been rented for my granddaughter’s wedding in Connecticut.

“Mammy! Follow me!” My grandson led me down a creaky old staircase to a dark basement. “We have to be careful,” he whispered. “There are spiders down here. And if we hear any noise, we’ll have to leave fast!”

“Okay,” I said. “I like this basement. I used to play in the basement on hot summer days, when I was a little girl. There was a snake in that basement. . .”

“Ssh, Mammy, did you hear that noise? Hurry, we have to get out of here!”

I ran up the stairs behind his slender little figure, as he dashed all the way from the basement to the third floor. The third floor had a pool table. My great grandson challenged me to a game of pool — played according to his unorthodox rules, of course. We tied the game.

As the catered dinner was being set up on tables under a covered back porch, I heard another “Follow me, Mammy!” and was led on a delightful run down a gently sloping, grassy hill. Later, I logged onto Google maps on my computer and found the satellite view of the Airbnb where we were staying. Using a handy Google map tool, I calculated the distance between the back porch of the mansion, to the trees at the bottom of the hill. The length of the route we ran is a little over 460 feet.

After running down the hill and searching for wild animals in the bushes (“If anything tries to get us, Mammy, I will hit it with this big stick!”), we ran back up the hill. We did this twice, for a total of 1,840 feet of hilly running on a hot (90 degree Fahrenheit) and very humid New England summer day. That’s more than 1/3 of a mile.

Fortunately, since reading the book Mini Habits by Stephen Guise last September and changing my daily routine, I have been logging several miles each day on my exercise bike, and planking and lifting weights, for the past ten months. Because of this, I was able to keep up with my very energetic grandson on our hilly runs. I even ran a few circles around him on the hill.

When we were running downhill the first time, I asked him: “How old are you now?” It’s hard for me to keep all the ages straight in our large, extended family.

“I’m six!” he replied

“I’m sixty-six!” I said, as I ran alongside him.

“Wow!” he said.

When I was running with my grandson, I felt ageless. Until the next morning, that is, when I got out of bed and discovered some sore muscles. But it was so worth it!

Today, I am back home with my husband and our two rescue dogs in New Mexico, and my great grandson is with his mom, my younger granddaughter, visiting his father in Pennsylvania, before they fly back to their home in California. My older granddaughter is now married — it was the best wedding ceremony ever! — and my son and his fiancee are back in Pennsylvania, while my daughter and her boyfriend are heading back to Washington state.

I miss them all so very much. But they are still right here with me in my wonderful new memories of the best two days of my life.

“Follow me, Mammy!”

The title of this post was inspired by a poem entitled Ageless, written by my blogging friend Alexis Rose. Check it out:

In the comment section, I would love for you to tell me: do you feel old or young? Regardless of your age, I believe it is true: you are only as old as you feel. Most days, I feel about 25. 😁

PS: Since my blog is about healing from PTSD, I just had to add this: I couldn’t have done this trip, without the healing I’ve had for my severe Complex/Developmental PTSD. I couldn’t have done it, without a lot of prayer and the faith I now have in the Lord. I couldn’t have flown all by myself through all that turbulence. I couldn’t have faced being around relatives who have been told outright lies and twisted half truths about me, which is sadly typical of how narcissistic abusers portray their victims. And I certainly could not have handled being in the presence of, and seated at the same table with, an ex who literally almost killed me twice, many years ago, without a ton of healing for my PTSD. (See my How to Heal PTSD page for details on how my healing has happened.)



25 thoughts on “This is Ageless! (Updated with a PS about how my PTSD has healed enough to allow me to do this)

  1. ibikenyc July 16, 2019 / 4:53 pm

    Welcome back! πŸ™‚

    What a WONDERFUL story.

    (I will answer you at greater length, probably tomorrow, and after I’ve read the poem.)

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  2. Sue Cass July 16, 2019 / 5:00 pm

    Do I feel old? I do now after reading this! I was 25 sitting in my chair. lol I am so happy for you and the wonderful visit you had. And see you didn’t crash.:-)

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  3. simplywendi July 16, 2019 / 5:38 pm

    so happy you experienced such a wonderful get together! πŸ™‚

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  4. Bruce July 16, 2019 / 6:04 pm

    I’m 74 Linda but I don’t think of myself as 74. From a mind perspective I think I’m still in my thirties but as of late the body has been letting me know in no uncertain terms that things are definitely not as they used to be. I could swear that someone has been pouring lead in my veins when I first get up in the morning. Even thought that I could be in some kind of a vortex with regard to gravity but apparently that’s not true, but it sure feels like it. I do find however that my steps are a little faster when I’m around my three year old grand daughter and I also laugh a lot more. Children are such a gift. Really glad you enjoyed your trip. Grace and blessings to you and yours.

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    • Linda Lee/@LadyQuixote July 16, 2019 / 6:12 pm

      Aww. I know what you mean about the gravity vortex, lol. But yes, grandchildren help keep us young. πŸ’˜πŸ’˜

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  5. @PreacherBiker July 16, 2019 / 7:30 pm

    What a great post I’m so glad you got to see all 3

    Sent from my T-Mobile 4G LTE Device

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  6. seekingdivineperspective July 16, 2019 / 7:52 pm

    Wow, good for you, Mammy! I’m so glad you got to play with your great-grandson, and that he is too young to understand all the grown-up drama that might have spoiled your time.

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  7. July 16, 2019 / 8:51 pm

    So happy you were able to make this trip. It sounds amazing. Especially your time spent with your grandson. You must have hated to leaveπŸ’•

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    • Linda Lee/@LadyQuixote July 16, 2019 / 9:01 pm

      When it was time to say goodbye, he threw his little arms around me and said “I love you Mammy” — oh boy. Tears. But they are happy tears.

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  8. laronda65 July 16, 2019 / 9:07 pm

    I’m so happy for you!!

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  9. hawk2017 July 17, 2019 / 2:36 pm

    Happy you are home safely and you overcame so much thru the Holy Spirit on this trip. God is Awesome.:)

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  10. mitchteemley July 18, 2019 / 9:05 am

    Delightful, Mammy. It’s wonderful how God uses our healing to help–and reconnect us with–others.

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  11. gracemercyjoy July 20, 2019 / 2:52 pm

    What a delightful share about God lifting you up after people tried to keep you down. That 6 year old is going to remember that run with you, and that adventure all his life. Its victory and the story of the truth that God heals the brokenhearted *PTSD is in my opinion of form of broken heart that is smashed to little pieces. God puts them back together with the superglue of gold–not only stronger in the broken places but gloriously beautiful, a beauty that no lie from hell can extinguish

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    • Linda Lee/@LadyQuixote July 20, 2019 / 7:04 pm

      Thank you so much for your encouraging, beautiful, TRUE words, my precious friend! I


  12. ibikenyc July 27, 2019 / 4:55 pm

    How wonderful!

    How lovely that you’re fit enough to have done all that running up, down, and around!

    That place looks and sounds gorgeous. The wedding must have been magical πŸ™‚

    I turned sixty (!) in January. I am regularly frustrated and confused because I don’t know how it is that the thirty-year-old chick I still feel like inside can look like that. . . older woman I see in the mirror.

    I think Gertrude Stein said it best: “We are always the same age inside.”

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    • Linda Lee/@LadyQuixote July 27, 2019 / 9:20 pm

      “We are always the same age inside.” I love that. It’s so true.

      Running with my great grandson was pure joy. His mom, my granddaughter, told me that after they returned home to California, he told her dad, my son: “Grandpa! I met your mom! Her name is Mammy!”

      Aww… it was so wonderful. I need to figure out a way to visit San Jose in the near future.

      By the way, you definitely do have a young soul. You come across as very youthful. Wise, but young. The best way to be. πŸ˜€

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      • ibikenyc July 28, 2019 / 3:00 pm

        He sounds like THE CUTEST SIX-YEAR-OLD EVER!!!!! You must be “AWWW-ing” ’til you’re weak in the knees!

        San Jose sounds like a road trip from where you guys are, but I LOVE to drive, so maybe that’s me.

        Thank you for your kind words πŸ™‚ I actually feel much younger than I used to in many ways, including physically.

        There’s a commercial for some old-folks’ OTC drug, like arthritis vitamins or something, and the two I’ve seen have the actor saying, respectively, “I’m fifty-three, but I feel thirty-five!” and “I’m sixty-two, but I feel twenty six!” (or whatever ages they are). I sit here nodding every time, although I do feel older than six! πŸ˜‰

        Yeah; isn’t that quote the BEST?! I just happened upon it somewhere about a year ago.

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  13. ourlittleredhouseblog July 31, 2019 / 5:48 pm

    It sounds beautiful Linda, so happy for you. And that little boy sounds adorable. What a wonderful memory to have and hold in your heart forever now.

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  14. Anna Waldherr August 4, 2019 / 3:59 pm

    Thank you for sharing this beautiful day w/ the rest of us! ❀

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